Unexpected Love

Is this Love? It can't be. It shouldn't be. I must stop.

She came into my life as a stranger, during the time that I've felt that the world has turned its back on me. She was a good listener, a bubbly person, an interesting one. I've thought I was living a terrible life. Then, She came and made me realize in an instant how, I can still be considered, as a lucky one.

Come to think about it, I knew her through the internet. Where bunch of dummies are around. Fake people who are pretending to be somebody else. Through the swarm of lies, I think I have found a genuine one.

Time had passed and I was given the chance to know her better. I must admit, she was amazing. Since I went home here in the Philippines, My life can be described like a stagnant water. No movements, nothing's happening at all. It was on a constant sadness, nothing is changing, everything remains the same, each and everyday. She came and my days turned brighter, She slowly turned my boring days to gloomy ones. I've felt alive and happy. I've felt motivated and energized to raise my self up and face life challenges once again.

She has her own sadness. It was even worse than what I have. I wanted to give her a hand. I want her to be happy. I feel that there is a reason why God made our roads intersect. If God wanted to use me to make her smiles real again, I would not object. I am more than willing to help.

Comes the moment that I could no longer explain what I feel for her. We always talk, almost everyday. She's comfortable on telling me everything, everyday, there will always be stories about those guys who are trying to win her heart.

I don't really know what I'm suppose to feel. Should I be hurt? or rather, Who am I to get hurt?
She treats me as a good friend, and I'm afraid that I see her, something more than that.

Those guys who are pursuing her are way, way, way better than I am. They have good credentials and they also have good looks. Compared to me, who is just an ordinary guy, without nothing to boast.

She deserves the best, She deserves to be happy. I want her to be happy. I want her to live her life to the fullest. I want her to experience everything that life has to offer. I want her to make the most out of everything.

Is this Love? It can't be. It shouldn't be. I must stop.

Internet

The internet.

Now in our generation, it plays an important role in our daily lives. Advancement of technology have allowed us to have computers right on our palms. And so, the internet. It was been made so handy, that almost everyone uses it. Some can't even live with it.

Before, it was E-mail that sprouted and made snail mails close to extinction. As time goes and communicating through internet has been improved. Now, we have countless social networking sites that we can use to keep in touch with families and friends.

Remember the time when you rush to get back home from work/school to catch your favorite tv shows? Or anticipating the coming saturday to see a movie with your family on theatres? when internet became handy and fast, people had preffered watching videos online using devices that are hand held. What would you choose? A television with limited channels? A movie theatre where you need to pay to see a movie once ? Or in a handy device having the internet which has countless collections of videos to choose from. You can watch it all anytime and anywhere, and the best thing is, its free.

Gameboys, Snes, Sega games, Those are some of the terms we are close to forget as internet had opened a gateway for us to a vast number of games that can be played on our handphones or tablets. it was indeed practical to buy a handphone rather than a gaming device. We can be entertained by using the same device that we use in communicating. internet has made gaming experience better too as we can easily share and compare how we are doing in a game.

Internet is so vast it seems to have no boundaries. I see it quite similar to the universe. But it seems we are not maximizing the use of it or rather, we are ignorant on what do we really have right in the palm of our hands.

we usually use it on social networking sites, watching a full series of a certain show, watching movies and downloading and playing games. We have used the internet for pleasure and entertainment.

It wasn't bad though, I myself commits that I do the same thing, but then, I guess, we have overdone it.

The 2 main reasons why we've used social networking sites was to communicate with our love ones and for us to be updated on remarkable events that's happening or about to happen to those people that we care about. but then, this sites became spaces full of braggings and bullyings. full of people who keeps on insisting their opinions and contradicts the opinions of others. some even use it for charities, for missing people or for those who have sickness wherein they can go to the proper government agencies or local NGO'S if they really wanted to help. Some uses it to gain popularity as well and some use it to scam other people to get some money.

Playing games and watching video clips were supposed to relieve us from stress and make us entertained but then we've spent so much time on those things that we have refrained from doing things that we are in need to do. instead of relieving us from stress and depression, it became one of the reasons why we suffer from such things.

l, myself, commits that I am guilty on using the advancement of the technology in a wrong way. and I can say, I hae taken Internet for granted.

I've decided to change the way I use the internet. Since then, I've found various sites where you can enrich your your knowledge. There are bunch of creative authors who write infos in a creative way using hilarious illustrations which they call "info graphics'. I became a big fan of matthew Inman's works, the owner of theoatmeal.com. There are plenty of educational videos and games too where you can learn while having fun. As for me, It's good to have fun and enjoy life, what can make it even more better is knowing that you have learned something new before a day end.

I have decided to write blogs weekly too for me to improve on my english. I hope this has been a good way to start. :)

Great man,

He is Nikola Tesla,

He was a Serbian-American inventor.
A mechanical and Electrical Engineer.

Honestly, I don't know him.
Do you?

Do you know Thomas Edison?
Edison is so famous because of his
ground breaking inventions like the light bulb
and the DC or Direct Current in producing
electricity. You know him for sure.


How is Nikola Tesla and Thomas Edison connected to each other?

1884, Edison hired Tesla to work for his company, Edison Machine Works. Tesla's work for Edison began with simple electrical engineering and quickly progressed to solving some of the company's most difficult problems.

Tesla was offered to redesign Edison's Direct Current Generators. He was offered $50,000 (nowadays, it is equivalent to $1.1 million) if he redesigned Edison's inefficient motor and generators, making an improvement in both service and economy.

1885 when Tesla inquired about the payment for his work, Edison replied, "Tesla, you don't understand our American Humor", thus breaking his word.

Tesla Immediately resigned and build up his own company. Right then, He invented Alternating Current (AC). The battle between Tesla's AC and Edison's DC began. It was called "War of Currents."

Edison's currents need long thick cables, and needed a large powerplant every square miles. Tesla's AC provided more voltage, using thinner wires, and can easily be transmitted over long distance.

Now,AC is what all homes use today. Tesla won.


What make Tesla even more Awesome?


He has a photographic memory like Jose P. Rizal. His photographic memory enabled him to visualize complex devices in his head and then build them without ever writing anything down. He spoke eight languages, including English, French, Serbian, Italian, Latin, German, Hungarian, and Czech. He could memorize entire books and memorize them at will.

When he was bored, he did things like creating 130 foot long bolts of lightning in his front yard. He still holds the world record for the longest bolt of manmade lightning.

The first hydro eletric plant was built by Tesla at Niagra Falls.

Earthquakes was a natural occurring event unless you we're a roommate with Tesla. While living in NYC, he discovered the resonant frequency of the earth, something that scientists weren't able to confirm until 60 years later. Using this, Tesla created an "earthquake machine". When he turned it on, the machine nearly destroyed his apartment and the surrounding block had he not smashed it with a sledgehammer.

He also designed a "death ray", which could supposedly destroy thousands of airplanes from hundreds miles away. And quote from the book, "He possessed an evil bone in his body, and could've probably found a way to screw up the earth's rotation and send us all spiraling into the sun like squealing little sausages.

Free energy for the entire planet was one of Tesla's final offerings to the world. He built a device that could transmit eletricity wirelessly for 26 miles. He received funding from J.P. Morgan, and built the Wardencylffe Tower. This tower would provide free energy and communication for the entire world. When Morgan discovered Tesla's plan to provide free energy, he shut the project down believing there was no financial gain to the idea.

The modern electric motor, the radio, robotics, Neon, X-Rays, Basic radar and laser technology, wireless communications, and some other well devised inventions, are all invented by Tesla.




I am not saying that Edison doesn't deserve the respect and recognition that He received. I would just like to say that Tesla deserves the same recognition that Edison received.

Tesla is amazing!, I idolize him now. :)

sources : http://www.basilmarket.com/forum/2029372/1/Nikola_Tesla_is_the_greatest_genius_who_ever_lived.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nikola_Tesla

7 deadly sins : Acedia

Acedia is the neglect to take care of something that one should do. It is translated to apathetic listlessness; depression without joy.  - Wikipedia

Who thought this is a sin?

Acedia comprises depression and despair.

This may lead a person to commit suicide, that's why it was

considered one of the deadly sin.

Who does not experience depression?

It is seldom caused by something, and more often caused by someone.

Sometimes it might be your fault why you've become depressed,

but a lot of times it's someone's fault.

Those people that doesn't care about how you feel,

Those that will do everything just to get what they want,

and after they've got it, they will leave you without even thinking what

might happen to you.

Those who lie, who let you hope for something that was not true.

And when they have your trust, they will leave you hanging and take away

all your hopes.

putting you on the state of despair.

So i must say, making someone depress must be considered a deadly sin as well.

On the other hand, Someone must be strong enough to endure the lies of reality.

to avoid this sin. If you already committed this sin, why must you hurt yourself physically?

a sin would not be corrected by another sin.  it's a stupid act.

It's only a matter of accepting and moving on. Learn from your mistakes. Choose carefully whom

you will trust. never put your guard down. Always leave something for yourself.

everything that causes depression
also causes someone to be stronger and more careful

also, just always think you are not alone.

7 deadly sins : Pride

PRIDE

-"considered the original and most serious of the seven
deadly sins, and the source of the others. It is identified
as a desire to be more important or attractive than others,
failing to acknowledge the good work of others, and excessive
love of self (especially holding self out of proper position toward God)."

from wikipedia.

excessive love of self, in short, being
selfish. It's because you never care what
others would feel. you only care for
your own.  Believing that you are right and they
are wrong. You would only see their faults. thinking
that you are the only one whose hurt. that you are
the victim and they are the suspects.

these sin is very common,
at work, school, anywhere.

I know for myself that it is, indeed a sin.
but i use this sin as a defense mechanism.
especially when I'm hurt. It's for me to avoid
someone to hurt me some more.

If you got no pride, you'll be eaten by their pride.
that's why you'll be force to increase your pride
higher than theirs. I consider it a "compulsory sin"
in order to survive a world full of pride.

can you imagine, what if pride doesn't exist?
i think the world would be a much much better place
to live.

7 deadly sins : Greed

When I was 17, I admit, i was consumed by this deadly sin.
It happened on my 2nd year in college, to cut the story short, I joined a company wherein you need to recruit people to gain money. No resume, No Interview, No Experience needed, you only need Php 7,300.00 to get in.

Upon recruiting a person, you must not give them an idea that they need money to join, you must say it's a job, like my friend say, "encoder". that was the first lie you would do.
Php 7,300.00 is a big money, it's not that easy to get, If you want to get it fast, you must do something bad, steal or rather lie to your parents. When the person you are trying to recruit wants to join but doesn't have the money, of course you will be pushing him to get the money fast, if needed, you will help him lie. that was the second.
 That is for only one person, If you want to get a lot of money, You must recruit a lot of people and do this thing. And there goes a wave of lies.

"Money is the root of all evil."
A famous quotation from Louisa May Alcott, a famous american author.
I really agreed with this quote during those time.
and there is this one essay that says,
"If money did not exist, this earth would have definitely been a better place. Money, the root of all evil, has shaped our world into a corrupt nation, a people without a conscience, and a society of very scrutinizing and  greedy human beings. Our nation, as corrupt as it may seem, has not always been this way. In the early ages, amassing the most money was not always the main goal. Happiness and a beautiful family were top priority."

That was very convincing. But then, One of my professor showed me the B-side.

He asked the whole class, "do you believe that money is the root of all evil?"
The whole class answered "yes", including me.
My professor just smiled and say,

"Money is just a paper, the root of all evil was the hunger for money."

I find it correct. why we must blame the money.
some may disagree, some may agree.

but for me, I'll just lie in the fact that, we've been placed on top of all living and non-living things.
We're the one who controls. If anything went wrong, it's our fault. we must not be controlled by anything lower than us.

P.S , sorry for the poor grammar. I was really not in shape today. xP

Test of Reality

I was browsing random mangas. Then i saw HunterXHunter, I really love this manga. remembering my childhood as well. And as i go to the last page of chapter 3, i was moved by these scene.

Gon, Kurapika and leorio passed by a place that looks like a ghost town. They we're not aware that the hunter exam has started and this was the first test. The old lady which is one of the examiner asked them this question, "your son and your daughter have been kidnapped and you can only save one, which one do you choose? son or daughter?" The three remained silent. And the old lady revealed that they passed the test. silence was the key. This scene tells the fact that "if you don't know the answer, it's better to keep your mouth shut."  
After that, gon realized something, what if that day comes when he needs to choose. what would he do.

" reality doesn't have place for feelings."when the time comes that you need to choose, there would still be hurt no matter whom you pick.
We need to let go of the other, and move on with what is left.